i think anyone who was self-diagnosed at some point is afraid of being "that self-diagnosed allistic". i know that i'll sometimes wonder if i'm just making up my symptoms to try to be "special", especially since some of them (flapping, particularly, but also some other things) either started or got worse since i self-diagnosed. but then i remember that i wouldn't be diagnosed with NLD if there wasn't SOMETHING there, and everyone i know agrees with me, so then i feel better. </rambling>