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I Want to Make Something Abundantly Clear

To any anons who want to waltz in here and try to tell me how to behave, how to think, how to feel, how to act when people oppress me with their words, their behavior, their very ideas:

You are not starting a conversation, you’re attempting to bully and gaslight me. And I will not stand forit.

If you think for a second that I will bow and fold because you call me “mean” for standing up for myself, you’ve got another think coming. If you think you can guilt me into walking on egg shells and being nice to my abusers by telling me to take the highroad, you are enormously misguided. 

And if you think–if you imagine for the smallest second–that I will let you bully, gaslight and guilt trip my followers, you’re going to find out just how prickly this particular hedgehog can be; That which does not kill me makes me meaner, and trust me, over the years, a lot of things have tried. 

I’ve dealt with plenty of bullies. I went through bully hell and came out the other side, and you don’t scare me. I know that intimidates you. The idea of marginalized people standing up for themselves terrifies you. And if you’re going to hang around my blog to sling around anon hate, I suggest you get used to terror. I will never, ever stop defending myself against you. Ever.

More on Angry Autistics April (also my inbox ahhhhh!)

So to clarify: I know there are people already doing things for April. That’s great! Want me to signal boost it? Just give me a heads up. Want me to reblog a post you’ve written or art you’ve done? Let me know, and I’ll do it. AH has over 500 followers now (I don’t like to talk about this, it makes me uncomfortable) and some of them may not follow some of (or any of) the autism tags. If you’ve started a tag for your project, I can also signal boost that here.

We are, after all, all in this together.

But here at AH is also where the barbs comes out. That’s why I created it, after all. Thus, got something that makes you angry and want to turn it into a hedgehog meme? Awesome! You can even send me the text if you want and I can make the meme itself for you.

Want to write something? Rant about anti-vaxxers, Autism $peaks, Simon Baron-Cohen, the inane things your mom says about your autism, etc. etc.? Cool! If you want, you can submit them here for April. Especially if you’d like to write something but don’t want to deal with people bugging you about it or friends or family finding out about it–just let me know and I can post it anonymously for you. (And if your anon article gets any anon hate, I can give them a verbal beatdown for you. Or just delete it. Your choice.) 

Several years back, when I was still on Twitter, I encountered a woman who wanted to do something for Autism Awareness Month. Being autistic myself, I offered to be interviewed. She seemed to think this was a great idea and was very eager–and then I heard nothing from her again. Not a single word. Not even a “sorry, life happened, don’t have the time now” sort of message. Nada. 

I’ve been frustrated ever since with how much “Autism Awareness Month” has nothing to do with actual autistics and I know I’m not the only one who feels that frustration. So I want to gather up our expressions of that frustration–from the “speak softly and carry a big stick” variety, to the mildly annoyed, to the pissed as all fucking hell–here, on AH. I’ve already seen quite a few different plans people have. My hope is not only to have my own content, but to keep track of what else is going on, and thus help others keep track.

Hopefully that makes my intentions clearer.

(And I know there is stuff in my inbox! What else is new? It’s sitting there mainly because it’s stuff I have to think carefully about, and sometimes that can take a long time. My apologies, I will get to it.)

I'd like to submit that you need to stop being so hateful during April to counter all the hate you guys spew during the rest of the year.

Anonymous

We spew hate? We spew hate? I don’t think you know what hate is. 

Hate is being burned to death on your 18th birthday because you’re autistic. 

Hate is being drowned at the age of four because you’re autistic.

Hate is a long list of people like you who were killed for that same thing that makes them like you.

Hate is the way we’re taught that everything about us is wrong, abnormal, broken, dangerous. 

Hate is the way therapies like ABA are used on us, forcing us to do things we don’t want to do, things that are painful and even traumatizing, so we can behave in a way deemed “acceptable.”

Hate is parents who hold us down or hit us when we have meltdowns, who punish us and allow us to be punished for behavior that is perfectly normal to us. 

Hate is people who spread lies about what causes autism, hate is anti-vaccers who would rather see children dead than autistic. 

Hate is people who want to “fix” us, to “cure” us, to wipe us off the face of the planet without ever asking us how we feel about it first. Hate is dismissing us, silencing us when we say “No, we’re not ashamed of who we are.”

Hate is whining incessantly about your autistic brother/sister/cousin/whatever without ever trying to understand them. Hate is ignoring people who are actually autistic and who know what they’re talking about, because somehow being the sibling of an autistic child makes you a bigger expert on the subject. 

Hate is using autism as a slur, calling people who like My Little Pony or Pokemon or any number of things autistic as an insult. 

Hate is you having the fucking gall to come here and try to tell me how to act, think, and feel about the way people treat me every day of my life.

I’ll tell you what hate isn’t, though. Hate isn’t oppressed people being unwilling to coddle your poor widdle feelings. Hate isn’t oppressed people refusing to let you stomp all over them and silence them. Hate isn’t oppressed people refusing to let you stigmatize them, stereotype them, or support the idea of wiping them off the face of the earth.

No, that’s just you getting what was coming to you for your intolerance. For your hate. Piss off. 

So, Who’s Up for Angry Autistics April?

Just a thought I’ve been having, about countering the influx of fuckery that people have the nerve to call “autism awareness” with a bit of crankiness and spikes. 

I’d love to have not just hedgehog memes, but articles, art, whatever people would like to submit, dealing in what this form of “autism awareness” actually does to us. What do y'all think? Does anyone have anything they’d like to submit to such a project? 

It’s all well and good to promote autism acceptance, and I’m down with that, but I think we also need to fight back against the stigma that organizations like A$ perpetuate with their Autism Awareness Month and their Light it Up Blue shit. Anyone with me?

[“You’ve comforted someone in their time of need? You can’t be autistic!”
Why the everloving fuck not?]
[TW: Death] I think this is one that pissed me off more than most of them. Autistics get a rep for being cold and unemotional, for not being affectionate or sympathetic, when it truth most of us just show those things in unconventional ways. 
When my husband’s grandfather passed away a few years ago, I comforted him by sitting with him and reading The Spiderwick Chronicles aloud. Yeah, it’s not “I’m so sorry for your loss” but my husband knows me. He knows that 1) that’s not how I operate (but that doesn’t mean I don’t care) and 2) I’ve actually lost a lot of people in my life and find phrases like those empty and meaningless, so I never say them. 
A couple of years ago his sister-in-law was diagnosed with cancer. One evening we found out she didn’t have long to live. The next morning, when the phone rang, I left the bathroom (not quite literally mid-pee, but close) and ran out to hold him while he got the news. (I knew it would be bad news because the phone always rings in the morning when it is. Any time the phone rings before noon, I’m hard-pressed not to freak out.)
When my mom was curled up on the floor screaming and crying over the death of my fourteen-year-old cousin, I was the one who held her.
It’s true that in most cases I’m quiet. I stand by, silent, not crying so everyone else has room to express their grief. That’s how I act, how I cope. That I don’t often comfort people in the expected ways does not mean I’m not trying, in my own way, to offer comfort. And when I do offer comfort, this by no means negates my autism.
That goes for all of us. 

[“You’ve comforted someone in their time of need? You can’t be autistic!”

Why the everloving fuck not?]

[TW: Death] I think this is one that pissed me off more than most of them. Autistics get a rep for being cold and unemotional, for not being affectionate or sympathetic, when it truth most of us just show those things in unconventional ways. 

When my husband’s grandfather passed away a few years ago, I comforted him by sitting with him and reading The Spiderwick Chronicles aloud. Yeah, it’s not “I’m so sorry for your loss” but my husband knows me. He knows that 1) that’s not how I operate (but that doesn’t mean I don’t care) and 2) I’ve actually lost a lot of people in my life and find phrases like those empty and meaningless, so I never say them. 

A couple of years ago his sister-in-law was diagnosed with cancer. One evening we found out she didn’t have long to live. The next morning, when the phone rang, I left the bathroom (not quite literally mid-pee, but close) and ran out to hold him while he got the news. (I knew it would be bad news because the phone always rings in the morning when it is. Any time the phone rings before noon, I’m hard-pressed not to freak out.)

When my mom was curled up on the floor screaming and crying over the death of my fourteen-year-old cousin, I was the one who held her.

It’s true that in most cases I’m quiet. I stand by, silent, not crying so everyone else has room to express their grief. That’s how I act, how I cope. That I don’t often comfort people in the expected ways does not mean I’m not trying, in my own way, to offer comfort. And when I do offer comfort, this by no means negates my autism.

That goes for all of us. 

neuroatypically-speaking:

goldenheartedrose:

survivalxineo:

imtootired:

survivalxineo:

So it looks like the 60 doses of the 16 different vaccines are doing their jobs then. Too bad the parents aren’t doing their jobs by knowing what’s in those vaccines.
Poor kids are being sold out by their own parents and are completely helpless to stop it!

Nah, what it looks like more is that you’re an idiot. Autism isn’t a disease needing a cure, or a defect caused by vaccines, it’s a form of natural human variation. Just the same as being gay, or bi, or ace, or trans, or intersex, or whatever the fuck other myriad ways in which humans vary from one individual to another. Maybe you should know what’s in the vaccines you’re blaming before making ridiculous claims, and of course cite evidence to back yourself up while you’re at it. I wasn’t a poor kid because I was autistic, I was a poor kid because people have shit attitudes toward anyone who is different, which manifests in shitty nonsense claims like yours, where we can only be seen as disordered victims in need of rescue by muggles. Just get the fuck out.

Alright - you don’t see the link? You don’t put the one with the other?
Lets break this down then shall we?
http://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/vac-gen/additives.htm
Common additives found in vaccines as CITED from the CDC.
Aluminum Antibiotic Egg protein Formaldehyde Monosodium Glutamate (MSG) Thimerosal (Mercury)
Just looking at this listing tells you that the common components are KNOWN to be harmful or outright toxic. I mean hell, this list sounds like a board of health violation write up from the truckstop waffle house or a rat infested chinese food restaurant in the dirty side of town.
So let’s look at some of the effects of just ONE known harmful ingredient …
http://hazard.com/msds/mf/baker/baker/files/m1599.htm
The Material Safety Data Sheet for Mercury states that KNOWN harmful effects include chronic effects such as:
“Chronic exposure through any route can produce central nervous system damage. May cause muscle tremors, personality and behavior changes, memory loss, metallic taste, loosening of the teeth, digestive disorders, skin rashes, brain damage and kidney damage. Can cause skin allergies and accumulate in the body. Repeated skin contact can cause the skin to turn gray in color. A suspected reproductive hazard; may damage the developing fetus and decrease fertility in males and females.”
I rest my fucking case!
This response to your soapbox’ed, uninformed, baseless, and ignorantly skeptical standpoint is longer than I really wanted to make it.
What I really hate is that people don’t even bother to think anymore. They do as they are told and one of the main things that people are taught, is to attack anything that goes against the state’s paradigm or philosophy of science, technology, education, medicine, or history.
Congratulations! You’re one of the idiots still chanting that the earth is flat.

Have you even considered for a moment that the people you’re responding to are autistic, and hey, might know something about autism (ahem, more than you do)? How about you consider some studies proving NO link between autism and vaccines.
http://yesthattoo.tumblr.com/post/37108102277/re-a-list-to-hopefully-shut-up-anti-vaxer-do-you

Also, if I have to say one more fucking time that <i>ethylmercury</i> is not dangerously toxic or that thimerosal isn’t in vaccinations given to children under seven, I might explode. 
Not to mention how many studies (we’re up to eight now, aren’t we?) have proven all this shit to be a load of hogwash, pedaled to ignorant douche weasels by fearmongering, greedy alt-med gurus. Most of the things found in vaccinations used as preservatives are not remotely toxic in the amounts in which they’re used, so your list proves nothing, OP, except that you’re yet another gullible anti-science child-killer. Congratulations! You’re one of the jackasses still chanting that the earth is the center of the universe! 
Go talk to some moon-hoaxers or something. We’re not in the mood for your counter-factual conspiracy theory bullshit. 

neuroatypically-speaking:

goldenheartedrose:

survivalxineo:

imtootired:

survivalxineo:

So it looks like the 60 doses of the 16 different vaccines are doing their jobs then. Too bad the parents aren’t doing their jobs by knowing what’s in those vaccines.

Poor kids are being sold out by their own parents and are completely helpless to stop it!

Nah, what it looks like more is that you’re an idiot. Autism isn’t a disease needing a cure, or a defect caused by vaccines, it’s a form of natural human variation. Just the same as being gay, or bi, or ace, or trans, or intersex, or whatever the fuck other myriad ways in which humans vary from one individual to another. Maybe you should know what’s in the vaccines you’re blaming before making ridiculous claims, and of course cite evidence to back yourself up while you’re at it. I wasn’t a poor kid because I was autistic, I was a poor kid because people have shit attitudes toward anyone who is different, which manifests in shitty nonsense claims like yours, where we can only be seen as disordered victims in need of rescue by muggles. Just get the fuck out.

Alright - you don’t see the link? You don’t put the one with the other?

Lets break this down then shall we?

http://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/vac-gen/additives.htm

Common additives found in vaccines as CITED from the CDC.

Aluminum
Antibiotic
Egg protein
Formaldehyde
Monosodium Glutamate (MSG)
Thimerosal (Mercury)

Just looking at this listing tells you that the common components are KNOWN to be harmful or outright toxic. I mean hell, this list sounds like a board of health violation write up from the truckstop waffle house or a rat infested chinese food restaurant in the dirty side of town.

So let’s look at some of the effects of just ONE known harmful ingredient …

http://hazard.com/msds/mf/baker/baker/files/m1599.htm

The Material Safety Data Sheet for Mercury states that KNOWN harmful effects include chronic effects such as:

“Chronic exposure through any route can produce central nervous system damage. May cause muscle tremors, personality and behavior changes, memory loss, metallic taste, loosening of the teeth, digestive disorders, skin rashes, brain damage and kidney damage. Can cause skin allergies and accumulate in the body. Repeated skin contact can cause the skin to turn gray in color. A suspected reproductive hazard; may damage the developing fetus and decrease fertility in males and females.”

I rest my fucking case!

This response to your soapbox’ed, uninformed, baseless, and ignorantly skeptical standpoint is longer than I really wanted to make it.

What I really hate is that people don’t even bother to think anymore. They do as they are told and one of the main things that people are taught, is to attack anything that goes against the state’s paradigm or philosophy of science, technology, education, medicine, or history.

Congratulations! You’re one of the idiots still chanting that the earth is flat.

Have you even considered for a moment that the people you’re responding to are autistic, and hey, might know something about autism (ahem, more than you do)? How about you consider some studies proving NO link between autism and vaccines.

http://yesthattoo.tumblr.com/post/37108102277/re-a-list-to-hopefully-shut-up-anti-vaxer-do-you

Also, if I have to say one more fucking time that <i>ethylmercury</i> is not dangerously toxic or that thimerosal isn’t in vaccinations given to children under seven, I might explode. 

Not to mention how many studies (we’re up to eight now, aren’t we?) have proven all this shit to be a load of hogwash, pedaled to ignorant douche weasels by fearmongering, greedy alt-med gurus. Most of the things found in vaccinations used as preservatives are not remotely toxic in the amounts in which they’re used, so your list proves nothing, OP, except that you’re yet another gullible anti-science child-killer. Congratulations! You’re one of the jackasses still chanting that the earth is the center of the universe! 

Go talk to some moon-hoaxers or something. We’re not in the mood for your counter-factual conspiracy theory bullshit. 

[&ldquo;You lead a very active sex life? You can&rsquo;t be autistic!&rdquo;
Guess I&rsquo;ll just stop then. &hellip; Pfft! Not!]
I&rsquo;m not sure what exactly this particular generalization is supposed to be based on. The misconception that we&rsquo;re all asexual? The misconception that we&rsquo;re incapable of consenting to sex? The misconception that we can&rsquo;t socialize enough to get laid? All of the above? Your guess is as good as mine.

[“You lead a very active sex life? You can’t be autistic!”

Guess I’ll just stop then. … Pfft! Not!]

I’m not sure what exactly this particular generalization is supposed to be based on. The misconception that we’re all asexual? The misconception that we’re incapable of consenting to sex? The misconception that we can’t socialize enough to get laid? All of the above? Your guess is as good as mine.

Made rebloggable because sometimes I’m a total silly head >.<

This is probably the wrong place to ask. Is there any such thing as a resource for those in the spectrum currently suffering abuse to escape it or get help? A hotline? Anything? Every time I try a general hotline, the moment it becomes clear I’m disabled, they become unhelpful and either hang up or direct me somewhere that would make my home situation much more dangerous. Thanks just for reading.
 Anonymous

I don’t know the answer to this one, but if someone does, please send it to my inbox ASAP. 

And signal boost, please!

This is probably the wrong place to ask. Is there any such thing as a resource for those in the spectrum currently suffering abuse to escape it or get help? A hotline? Anything? Every time I try a general hotline, the moment it becomes clear I'm disabled, they become unhelpful and either hang up or direct me somewhere that would make my home situation much more dangerous. Thanks just for reading.

Anonymous

I don’t know the answer to this one, but if someone does, please send it to my inbox ASAP. 

And signal boost, please!

[&ldquo;You aren&rsquo;t obsessed with a single interest? You can&rsquo;t be autistic!&rdquo;
Even Simon Baron-Cohen thinks you&rsquo;re ridiculous.]
&lsquo;Nuff said.

[“You aren’t obsessed with a single interest? You can’t be autistic!”

Even Simon Baron-Cohen thinks you’re ridiculous.]

‘Nuff said.