Autistic Hedgehog

[“Autists choose to be sociopathic.”

Better than choosing to be an ignorant dipshit]

Really. Trigger warning on that one thanks to ignorant trollface.

You know what I really never get about allistics? They dismiss autistic people as sociopathic or jerks or unemotional, without ever once realizing how much that hurts us. But we’re the ones who lack empathy? 

[“If you remove the ’re’ then ‘tard’ isn’t offensive anymore!”

So does removing the 'bas’ make 'go fuck yourself right off a cliff, you ignorant bastard’ less offensive too?]

Somehow, I doubt the answer would be 'yes’.

TRIGGER WARNING FOR ABLEISM LIKE WHOA: This site…This is so unspeakably vile. Here I am, supposed to be in bed, trying to get myself to relax because medication + other medication + overactive adrenaline = buzzing brain, and then I see this in my feed. 

This is why we want you to STFU, allistic people. Because this person–this person who works with these children every day–sees nothing wrong with calling them 'tards’ and ridiculing them on the internet. And I don’t give a flying spiky fuck what their FAQs try to claim, anyone who thinks lumping all children in special classes (some of whom they straight up admit only have behavioral problems) as 'tards’ is in any way acceptable is an ableist rat bastard.

This is what we deal with all the time. This is how the people who are supposed to care for us and help us treat us. Like a big fucking joke. Like we’re not worth trying to understand, we’re just stressful horror shows that you need to laugh at to feel better. This is not an acceptable way to treat human beings. Period.

And really, where do they get off calling other people tards when they try to explain a word from an entomological perspective. Man, but that bugs me.

(I know, I know, I shouldn’t pun, but it’s late and I’m angry and wired and ohhhh–I need to go try to calm down.)

[I love how much

We understand each other]

Seriously. Seeing how many people liked and/or reblogged my last post made me feel a lot better.

Sometimes it’s frustrating with autism (or similar problems), because we have some odd little quirks, and it’s hard to find people in everyday life who can relate to most of them. That’s one of the things I’ve loved about tumblr (even though I haven’t been here long) and especially about these memes. I suddenly found a whole bunch of people who understand exactly how I feel. 

So here is a little hedgehog chilling with some cacti, to show my appreciation.  

[Having bad day

Consider quitting all social websites]

Is it just me? Whenever I’m having a bad day or feel particularly crappy for some reason, I get this way. It’s like my brain forgets any success I’ve had on a given site and just carries on about how much I’m ignored and people don’t talk to me and omg I don’t want to cope with this shit anyway–that kind of thing. 

I generally get over it (although there are a few sites where I genuinely have not had enough success to stay) but it’s like whenever I’m feeling down, I want to quit everything. When I feel good I don’t mind the effort, but when I feel like crap, even thinking about the effort required makes me want to curl up and hide. 

Why does my brain never shut up? :(

[T-shirts to raise money for Autism Speaks?

I’d rather be naked]

I know, I know, I should probably stay out of the autism tag. It’s rife with idiot college kids doing shit like making T-shirts to raise money for A$. But on the bright (?) side, it’s pretty good fodder for memes.

P.S. Start sending me your ideas for anti-Autism Speaks t-shirts. I have a plan to take over the world.

[I am awesometistic.

I do not suffer for this.]

Word.

(From the meme generator.)

[I flap.

You can deal.]

This is one that has been sitting in the meme generator for a while, but no one has submitted it. I don’t know why, it’s awesome.

I will of course remove it if the creator requests it, but it seems silly for them to just sit in the generator. And if anyone has made one and feels, for whatever reason, uncomfortable with submitting it themselves, feel free to give me a heads up if you’d still like to see it here. 

[Anyone who tries to rewire my brain

Is going to die a very bloody death]

I’m sure most of you have seen this by now. Seriously, scientists, doctors, all y'all medical peeps: Back the fuck off. 

Here’s the thing, right. There are definitely aspects of my autism that I wouldn’t mind alleviating somewhat. Certainly there are aspects that I hope, with some work and real research, we can learn to alleviate for all autistics. I’m sure I’m not the only one who’s frustrated by the sheer amount of things I can’t eat because OMIGOD NOES texture get it away from me!

But with everything I’ve seen lately, I don’t trust people. I don’t trust them to understand what parts of me are valuable. I don’t trust them to understand that even the more problematic aspects of autism wouldn’t bother me half as much if other people were more tolerant and flexible. I certainly don’t trust them with the task of rewiring brains, especially on people who aren’t yet old enough to understand and appreciate their brains. 

There are so many aspects of my autistic brain that I love and value, despite the hardships it’s brought me. I don't want to see the world the way allistics do. I mean, no offense guys, seriously, but in spite of all the problems, it’s more interesting in here. I like it, my terror of social spaces and public transportation notwithstanding. And I simply don’t trust The Powers That Be to understand and respect that. I don’t trust them to allow me the autonomy to make my own decisions, to accept that I can make my own decisions.

Until I can trust them, they need to stay far, far away from me with their metaphorical ice picks. (Sorry for the ramble, I just have so many feels about this.)