I was diagnosed with delayed developmental disorder as a kid
the doctor then explained that it was “under the umbrella of Aspbergers.” My mother decided that no, I wasn’t and that was the last I ever heard of it. I did some research when I was younger, but I was in some pretty heavy denial. My lack of social skills were always swept under the rug by my parents and passed off as a product of too much internet and they suspected I was on drugs years before I even started doing them.
Now I’m 20 and only starting to take this seriously. I have legitimate problems socializing and connection with people, to the point where it becomes difficult to go to school or find a job.
I desperately want to be outgoing and social and the kind of person who’s friends with everybody (or has the ability to be, because when it comes down to it, I don’t like most people.) but when it comes to actually interacting with people, I get overwhelmed, depressed, and withdraw.