Autistic Hedgehog

[Sometimes takes everything very literally

Just to mess with allistic peoples’ heads]

Is it just me?

[“All children with autism are atheists and atheism is a form of autism.”

Congratulations. I’m speechless.]

Yeah. WTG, Fehmi Kaya, you’ve legitimately crossed the line so far that I can’t think of a single thing to say in response. 

[“Autistics have no imagination.” “Autistics live in their own little world.”

WOULD YOU PEOPLE MAKE UP YOUR GODDAMNED MINDS!?]

One of my favorite* of the constant contradictions “experts” like to spew about autistic people.

Tell me something, experts. If I have no imagination, how do I live in my own little world? What exactly would I even do there? How is it even possible to be absorbed in one’s “own little world” without an imagination to take one there in the first place? 

“Experts,” it’s time to just admit that you think we’re all brainless husks that sit around staring into space because we lack the capacity for thought. Sure, it’s tasteless and makes you look like a horrible person (and you are) but at least it’s a lot more honest and a lot less contradictory. 

P.S. I don’t live in my “own little world.” I live in lots of them, and they’re rarely little. You jelly?

*By favorite I mean “most laughably asinine." 

I don’t understand why this haven’t been made before. I can’t stand when I see the words “suffers from autism”. I might don’t have many difficulties as an aspergers compared to others, but it’s my environment that makes life difficult, not my autism. If you suffer from migraine, then yes, you can go to somewhere silent and lay down, but it won’t take it away. No matter if everyone leaves and you get to sit down with something you’re interested in, or they stop touching you, or whatever that could bug you, it won’t just go away. Not only by that. I only have problems because the busses are crowded and people say things that makes me extremely uncomfortable or crack their knuckles or what have you. That’s the difference. Why does I have to be cured and change and behave as you want? Why don’t you behave as I want?

Sure, there are things I have to fight with, as walking on the streets alone. I need help with that. But I can learn it. Just like you can learn how to solve advanced math problems or remember long, complicated words. That comes naturally to me. I don’t suffer from autism. I have autism. There’s a LOT of things I struggle with, but then I got a great visual memory, patience, a high IQ, a sense of how other feels that is so strong that I jokingly refers to it as my sixth sense, and I get extremely happy everytime I see bird, be it a gull, pigeon, crow or hawk. It will keep me smiling for minutes.

My autism does just as much good than bad. I don’t suffer from it.

Thank you.

(I’m very, very sorry if somebody that reads this think that their autism is really something they suffer from. I just don’t like when we got put under one hat, like “of course they all hate everything about themself, how could it be different?”.)

[“Stop. That’s weird. People can see you.”

Yeah, well people can fuck off.]

Telling that to me is only going to make the stimming worse. Also, thanks for hurting my confidence.

[Do not make fun | Of the way I talk]

That includes repeating what I said, correcting the way I pronounce something, pointing out how robotic I happen to sound, or mocking the fact that I can’t control the volume of my voice (telling me to please turn down my mic is fine though). 

I game a lot and this is the #1 reason I never use voice chat is because people. make. fun. of. the. way. I. speak. It’s gotten to the point where if I am in a voice chat I avoid speaking as much as possible and sometimes pretend to not have a microphone because I know without fail someone is going to make fun of me. 

And if I say “hey that’s not cool, I’m autistic please don’t make fun of me” it just usually makes people do one of three things a) laugh even harder or b) avoid me after that or c) make excuses and/or accuse me of starting drama.

I’d love to just be able to sit in vent and chat with people like everyone else but with the exception of a very few number, I can’t. Logging on voice chats makes me anxious now. Thanks.

I mean, it’s bad enough that my own family makes fun of the way I speak in the outernet, I can’t even escape from it and focus on killing digital dragons on the internet. This is a thing that permeates even my ESCAPE from everything else.

[I am not

a fate worse than death]

I think this one speaks for itself.

[Defeat Autism Now!

Relax! I’m not a boss monster in a JRPG!]

But if I was, I’d be load-bearing, and you’d have 30 seconds to escape the extremely large, labyrinthine building you found me at the center of.

Seriously, of all the autism groups that teamed up to form Autism $peaks, Defeat Autism Now! has always been the one with the name that creeps me out the most. Not cure, not treat, defeat, as if autism is some hulking boss monster in a JRPG (Japanese role-playing game, for those of you not in the know). It’s spine-shivering hyperbole of Orwellian proportions. 

The implications terrify me. The idea that who I am, that something integral to my very personality, is a thing that needs defeating, is staggering. Autism is not a disease. Despite the ableist fucks who compare it to cancer, AIDS and cystic fibrosis, it’s not an illness; it’s simply a difference. The idea that differences need to be erased and defeated…that is the nightmarish rhetoric from which the most horrific dystopias are born. And right now, entire groups of people are out there pushing for one. 

Much scarier than any boss monster I ever faced down.